begging for mercy

There's some really serious stuff going down in our house right now... stuff that I'm not comfortable talking about here. Stuff that has far reaching ramifications to our entire futures.

I know, I know, it's not fair to say that and then not give you the low down, but the truth is, I can't. I really can't. I mean, you know more about my hoo-ha than most people I've slept with, but this is different. (wow - "most people" that sounded v. whorish - but I assure you my life is not that exciting)

In the space of a few days, it will all likely be worked out, but right now I feel as if the world is ending and falling apart. In just a few days, we should have a better grasp of what we're facing.

I rationally recognize that it's not really the end of the world ... and that things could be a lot worse, but for us, right this very minute - that's relative.

I have never been comfortable asking for help, even when it gets to the point that I know that I cannot rationally cope with something on my own.

And right now, I'm reaching that point.

So, I'm humbling asking you for your thoughts and prayers right now. Light a candle for us, shake a rubber chicken, meditate, burn some incense anything.

I'm not a praying type person, but my knees are raw from begging for mercy.

I just want something to go right for us, just this one time. Is that so much to ask?