To the quick

My first R.E. appt. is in an hour. I am so overwhelmed with nausea. Maybe it's because I've bitten my fingernails down to the "quick". I am so afraid. I was going over my records which I finally had to basically throw a fit for from Dr. Relax. There are so many red flags in there, so many things that should have been addressed so long ago that weren't. Tests taken on the wrong day, warning signs not even discussed with me. I feel betrayed, and like I've wasted almost two years of my life.

God. why. can't. anything. be. easy. just. once.