Drifting

Thank you, each of you - who've stopped by to say hi. Who've e-mailed, called, IMed, texted - who've kept me in your thoughts.

I'm here. Somewhere, drifting along.

There's a lot going on in my life right now. A lot that I can't talk about, that I don't want to talk about, that I don't want to recognize the reality - the possible finality - of.

I'm spending a lot of time trying to figure things out. Trying to find my way, remembering how to believe. In love, in life, in myself.

My heart is simultaneously overflowing and breaking.

I have to admit that I have been extremely lax about checking in on most of you. I still think of all of you, but right now - I can't check in on you. It's too painful.

I'm sorry.

I will soon, I hope.

Right now, right now just trust you're in my thoughts, in my heart.

And I'm thankful for you.